Even as a small child I went my own way. My parents saw my independence emerge at the age of four. As a child I had no need to be close to my parents, emotionally I kept mostly for myself. As I reached the school age and got to know other children I ended up outside, having difficulties getting friends. I felt very different and got into a kind of identity crises

I didn’t grow up in a religious home. No one tried to influence me, but I had many open-minded discussions with my parents about religion. I could never accept what my parents believed in. Deep within I felt that religion wasn’t something for me. The interest for supernatural phenomenon’s attracted me more and I started exploring that area instead. At the age of 12 I came into contact with the out of body phenomenon through a TV program and sat as glued to the sofa. Fascinated by that it was familiar in some way.

The experiences started at the age of 15. One afternoon when I was asleep I woke up by more or less a bang in my head. The feeling in my physical body disappeared and an energy streamed through all of me in a wave formed motion. It was all incredibly powerful. I was totally terrified. This was nothing I had read about or heard of. A brave effort to explain the whole thing to my parents finally led to a visit to the doctor where I went through an EEG test. Nothing wrong was found on me. I was healthy. For ten years I periodically woke up by a beam of energy streaming through my head and straight through the body. At these experiences I could always feel a presence by my side.

My first out of body experience came at the age of 20. Many questions were raised and I started read through all kinds of spiritual literature to find answers on what was happening to me. When I at last landed in the esoteric literature, I felt coming to the right place. The depth that the esoterics provided is something I didn’t find in other literature.

In the gymnasium I read science with chemistry as specialty. Mathematics and chemistry was something I had great interest in. After the gymnasium I studied to become a chemical engineer. At first it felt right, but after one year I terminated my studies because deep within I felt this was not what I was supposed to do. By acquaintances I slipped into the health care sector. It felt natural to help people and I understood this was my way. In the year of 2004 I started studying to become a nurse.

The experiences continued. I noticed that the more I let go of my fear of the unknown the more I was able to explore. At times I woke up in the night, being visited by a light being who gave me energy. Eventually, my spleen chakra also got activated. With this activation I had to learn that emotions must be handled properly. At one occasion, when I allowed myself to be emotionally affected too much, the chakra broke. It was quite painful, but it was a valuable experience.

I also started to realize that much information is given to us in our dreams at night. The thing is to find the symbols and understand their meaning. This is really not simple. At times I feel as if I am given complicated picture puzzles to solve. It takes a large amount of patience and the insight that everything can’t be understood over one night.

I strive to get balance in my energy system. It’s demanding to dare dealing with yourself. But the cleansing process is necessary to be able to get on. The kundalini energies are now present all the time, cleaning channels and opening up.

The experiences are adapted to my level of development. If I accept an experience and understand its meaning it is time for the next step. There are many stairs to climb but, I perceive every step as very valuable knowledge.

It’s my experience that you can travel to other levels only by letting your mind move there. Once you are there, a body is created that you can use. At these experiences I get keys to what is about to happen in my energy system. The information comes with symbols that I have to interpret.